# forty.three

when i awake to a new day
nothing will be as it was

what it was
was not what i thought it to be
blinded by the unknowable
i find myself blank

i can only relinquish control
for the totality of being
has no end and no beginning
with willingness i must permit
creation that is calling me to have faith
in that which I cannot see
yet feel
that nothing is predestined

“it” whatever that may be
is still being written
as i leap into the void
not yet explored
i experience the sun’s first light

# twenty.one

A direct test of faith is to look within the blankness; to find the courage to see all possibilities and to find the will to form the void you leap into.

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in the unknowable we shift and change
progressing past our deepest fear
finding that we are actualized in the end and the beginning
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looking inward, i abandoned my fear
that death consumes me
for my ashes are the beginning of my totality
beckoning for the unknown
that i have immediate contact with
again and again, as i rise